Sunday, January 31, 2010

Sometimes God Justs Wants to Bless You

Ever have a day, week, month or maybe year and you felt like God didn't REALLY see your needs or meet them? Ever feel like your striving as hard as you can and your going nowhere?
Well, I am here to say that God can and will meet your needs. It may not be how you had planned, but he is SOOOOO much bigger and can do SOOOOOO much more than you can ask or imagine. Seriously.
God has been providing us so much lately that I am in shock and awe. Our deductibles carried over from last year, YES! God is providing the help that I have been trying to arrange for months. God provided all the stuff pictured above with rewards/bucks in my pocket and at a profit too boot. I don't know exactly how, all I can say is I met an angel in the store. God cares about even the most basic things such as diapers, paper towels and advil- used a LOT at our house. May your week be blessed.
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,

And He shall direct your paths.

Friday, January 29, 2010

So This Is What I Do

Well it is the last business day in January and we are having appt. #29, #30 and #31. Nothing happened our first week of January and nothing on the fifth, so in 19 days we have had all these appointments and I think I may have even missed marking down a Chiropractor appointment (or two) for me. So who could we possibly be seeing? The dentist-5, the counselor- weekly, evaluations for therapy and starting twice weekly speech and occupational with one child, E's eye exam, several chiropractor visits for my knee that's been oh so hurting, orthopedic for my knee (that's today), the audiologist, the ENT....(I am sure I have forgotten someone if not a few and I'm not even including piano lessons, basketball practice or games). So that's the reason you haven't heard much from us. When we are home we are trying to get school done, a little bit of housework .... I am looking forward to a much calmer schedule next month of only having one appt. on M, T, and W and two on TH, every week that is, not including E's monthly ECI appt's. Oh my, at least most of them will be at our house which will be a blessing (I think:)). Lest it sound like I am complaining, I am not. I am very thankful that M is getting some much needed specific help and I am happy that Elizabeth is progressing- did I tell you she eats pretty much anything now?! And she looks so cute in her glasses (this picture doesn't due her justice). We have good days and bad days, but God remains faithful.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Oh my Goodness!

Just had another hearing test and it shows only a mild loss!!! Waiting to see what the ENT will want to do.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Say What?!

Well before I start running this morning, I just wanted to update that yesterday we found out that Elizabeth has a bad astigmatism, as in alot, and is very nearsighted. I think I was in mild shock with hearing this at the opthamologist's office, it wasn't until after we ordered her glasses that I started coming up with questions and digesting all that I had heard. So she's half deaf and half blind?!.... I know this shouldn't shock me, just par for the course at this point, but it still does. Maybe it's how much has been going on- 18 doctor, therapist, dentist appointments since January 5th. Not counting the weekends that's 11 days for all that. Maybe that's why I am resorting to chocolate and coffee so much lately. Lest it be thought that the "fun" of these appointments are spread around our clan, most of them are for Elizabeth and Mr. M. (sigh) But they are receiving help that they otherwise probably never would have had unless God had placed them in our family. I guess it's good that I'm proactive?! Maybe I can call the opthamologist's office later today and make sure I am understanding correctly- though we go back in another six months (sigh).

Friday, January 15, 2010

It's been 4 months!

Today is four months since Elizabeth's adoption. Yesterday was the four month mark of when we got her. It's hard to believe that it's only been four months to be honest. Everyday is filled with so much to try and get her caught up. We have been able to drop the feeding therapy and the need for occupational therapy is questionable, because she has made so much progress in the last four months. Hopefully we hear something from the ENT today about another hearing test... I feel like the longer we wait the harder it is going to be to explore other funding options for hearing aids and the harder it will be for her to adjust to them- especially with four big brothers making a whole lot of noise :)
It is at times like this that I am trying to rest and be still and know that God is still God. We've come so far, but our journey is still beginning.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Seven Appointments

Seven doctor appointments in one day are behind us and all are still alive. Everyone got the all clear at the dentist and we got out with 40 min. before the next appointment so I grabbed some Starbucks. I had one of my worst parenting moments (it even happened at the therapists office!), but later in the day Mr. Z assured me we all have days like this. He is so sweet when he wants to be. I have to give Miss F a big thank you for sitting with the boys during the ENT visit. Elizabeth's ears were clear of infection and so we got to do another hearing test!!!!!!! The results are...(drum roll)....inconclusive! Yep. More waiting to know for sure. Possibly more testing involving putting her to sleep... Big bummer. But she is babbling more and today even started saying "mama", YES! She has been saying "dada" for a couple weeks now and in the last couple of days I'd heard a mama when distressed, but she was just walking around saying it tonight. Oh, it does a heart good. Mr. Incredible might be home tomorrow evening before the kids go to bed. For this year he's been gone more than he's been in town, rough way to start the year. But life goes on and we persevere.
Today I witnessed a mom have a meltdown in the doctor's office. I wanted to help, but what could I do with five kids in tow. I wanted to offer to pray with her, but she was on her cell phone most of the time we were in the waiting room together. The "whole" problem was that the doctor wouldn't see the 16 mo. old without verifying Medicaid first, she did offer to pay if need be. As I tried not to listen to her phone conversations I gathered she was single, the baby had Medicaid, her meltdown at the doctor's office was embarrassing her, she wanted to be seen by the doctor NOW. But is today where the problem started? More and more people are choosing to have sex outside of marriage. It has devastating results for all involved and even ripples to innocents because it is sin and sin has consequences. Had she had the baby out of wedlock, or maybe they got divorced or maybe she was raped? I don't know. I will never know. But in any of those cases sin is involved in some way. How can I with my arms laden with bags and coats and kids show love to her? Because it is not my place to judge, I sin too. I will deal with trying to repair a relationship with a child because of my sin today. Some sin is apparent, some is not, but we all sin.
Dear Father, please help that mom and child find you and the comfort and peace only you can provide. Amen.

Monday, January 4, 2010

Think What You Will

Well some may look down on this and others may get a good laugh, but after five years of battling Mr. M with his bed covers. Tonight I had a breakthrough- just don't have any (bedcovers that is). Before you go thinking that he is going to freeze (especially with this cold weather) let me explain. Mr. M just can't concentrate long enough by himself to make his bed. Never mind the fact that everyday he rips ALL the covers off his bed and carries his comforter around the house during the morning. If I had the time I would stand there, but my day is already stretched thin. However, I hate looking at messy beds-mine included- though you couldn't tell. Maybe it comes from all the painstaking bed making I did as a five year old or maybe it's lack of time... Anyway, Mr. M now has the privilege of sleeping in "Mommy's" sleeping bag. And so that bickering is limited, Mr. T also now sleeps in one as well. Did all this come about in some moment of sudden joyous clarity, Nope! As I left the boys room growling through my teeth about how they need to make their beds in the morning and I was sick and tired of the mess..., I knew this is not how I want to spend my week as a single mom (Mr. Incredible is traveling on business, but will hopefully make some sort of stopover to celebrate Mr. J's birthday). In fact, it's not how I want to spend anytime. Children are a joy and I need to be able to enjoy them. So long live the perpetual sleepover! Or at least until we can concentrate long enough to make a bed :)
In case I don't post again before Thursday, pray for our Thursday, seven doctor appointments- 5 dentist, 1 ENT and 1 therapy and piano lessons too boot!!!